I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands. —Isaiah 49:16
My concept of Jesus used to be so big that it lacked the personal. Instead of focusing on a close connection with him, I had worked long and hard on those relationships I could manipulate through my “Look at me, aren’t I great!” mentality.
That is why bulimia had seemed like such a good option for me for so long—I believed it kept me thin, and I thought people accepted me more readily when I looked a certain way.
I cannot begin to explain how freeing it was when I embraced Christ as my real Friend. For so long He was simply a gigantic idea to me. Although I believed them to be true, the unfathomable images of Savior, Redeemer, and the ultimate Sacrifice for mankind made God so big in my mind that what I knew of him didn’t translate to what was going on in my everyday life.
I had always been told of God’s great love, and somewhere inside I believed it. But what completely melted my heart, what completely liberated me from choking insecurity, wasn’t just the truth that Jesus loved me but that Jesus liked me. Exactly as I was. I didn’t have to pretend; I didn’t have to be a certain size or wear the right jeans. I could have a bad-hair day, and He would still like me.
It wasn’t just my obedience and righteousness He was interested in. He was interested in me. He autographed me on His hand, not because I was born into a great family or because of any of my successes or my attempts at being “cool” or even because He loves me, but because He likes me just as I am.
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Excerpt from Daily Gifts of Grace. © 2012 (Thomas Nelson) Used by permission.