OK, not funny! I don’t know who spun the dial
on my internal compass, but I’m not laughing. I
just came from the mall, where I misplaced my car in
the parking lot; and then, after finding it, I immediately
got lost, detouring through three strip malls before
careening (not purposely) onto the correct road headed
for home. No, there are no strip malls on the way to
my house. And no, the mall is not in another town. And
yes, I had been there many times.
I’ve spent my whole life looking for where I belong.
Well, not my whole life, since I spent my younger years
following whomever was headed somewhere—anywhere—until
I started to have more of a sense of self.
As I became a tad more
certain of who I was, I became a little less certain
of others’ choices. This
process is called “growing a brain,” and
from the best I can tell, it takes at least half a century,
perhaps a little longer. It seems our brains have networks
of hairline fractures through which brain cells trickle
out and fog and pollution seep in.
So my advice is for
us to Spackle. “Spackle” sounds
a lot like “sparkle” minus the glitz. It’s
a gluelike substance meant to fill in fractures—voila!
Brain gunk. We put gunk on our hair, so why not our brains?
Actually, all gunk aside,
what I’ve learned thus
far in life (besides never travel alone) is that my internal
compass isn’t the only thing broken. We also have
obvious fissures of the heart, like fractured relationships,
weakening moral fiber, and religious disillusionment.
I wonder if Spackle comes in vats?
Actually, that’s where our Redeemer comes in.
We need someone who can fix broken hearts, Spackle our
perspective, and even give us a reason to laugh. God
sent Jesus as a Redeemer to do just that—to redeem
the shards of our lives and create a stained-glass perspective.
When we realize we’re broken and acknowledge Jesus
as our Redeemer, then the crushing blows of life do not
destroy us; instead, we see through our repaired viewing
place “the goodness of the LORD in the land of
the living” (Psalm 27:13). Then we live with hope,
we dance more often, we laugh more deeply, and we are
not taken by surprise by the fact that life is all cracked
up.
I don’t have easy answers for the hardships of
life, but I’d tell you if I did. Of course, I realize
an old lady who wanders around a parking lot calling
out to her PT Cruiser, “Oh, Babycakes!” is
brain-cell suspect or at least a prime candidate for “the
home.”
In the pages ahead,
we will look at some of our heart fractures and see
reasons to crack up laughing. The topics are varied,
but each chapter is tied to the next by one strand:
cracks. I’ve included questions to tuck
in your heart or to share in a group. The chapters will
be short, because I can’t think in a straight line
very long before wandering off to the mall.
I’ve divided this project into three parts: things
(“Cracked Pots”), people (“Wisecrackers”),
and changes (“Going Crackers”). I created
these parts because I need logical order to stay on track
and not trot where rabbits scurry. Also, I’ve found
these three areas fray my last nerve, stretch my reserves,
and vie for my focus, strength, and attention.
First, I’ve included things, because things regularly
crack in our lives. Just think about how much time you
spend repairing all the stuff you’ve gathered around
you. In the chapters ahead, we will investigate how damaged
goods become prized possessions, how fractures become
highlights, and how cracks can actually add value. As
we will see in the pages ahead, “broken” doesn’t
have to mean “unusable.” In fact, our brokenness
can be the vibrancy that makes us even more valuable.
I love that.
Second, I’ve included people because—well,
I am one, and also because they play a featured part
in our lives. People build us, bamboozle us, baffle us,
and bless us. Sometimes we can’t live with them,
and we certainly weren’t designed to live without
them.
Finally, I’ve included change, because it is the
door to discovery. We weren’t meant to be static
but dynamic, and dynamics are charged by change. Yet
change is not always an easy door to walk through, whether
it’s a crack in the door or the door’s wide
open. So let’s walk through that door together.
As you turn the pages
through these stories about things, people, and change,
I’d love it if you laugh yourself
silly and then go live yourself sane. I’ve found
even a lively chuckle helps make room for a fresh run
at life. So if you’re in a good place, come giggle
till you jiggle. If you’re feeling debilitated,
come be tenderly heartened. And if you’re somewhere
in between, then be prepared—we’ll be laughing
one minute and sighing the next.
It’s a mystery how life can be both fun and fractured.
But there it is—all cracked up.